Finally..

ohmygodd. its confirmed, its booked, its soon, its about time. I finally get to see you, i finally get to recieve that long overdue hug, you know the ones where you usually slightly suffocate me. I cant wait, i just hope i'm able to compose myself, i hope i dont cry - i know i will, but i hope i dont, for your sake. Its crazy how i can refrain from crying about almost anything except when it comes to you, when it comes to this. Its going to be so hard to finally see you there, finally see you in that awful place; once i see you there i know it'll finally hit me, it'll finally seem real and that scares me, but i dont care, i want to see you, ive missed you so much. i want to give you a massive hug, i want to see you smile again, i want to make you smile again; I hope i do.