This is definite, like the sun will rise, pure like the thought if I jump I'll fly..

I'm over it. So over it. I'm done. I hate being put into situations where I'm forced to feel unlike myself. I'm an optimistic person, full of hope, energy and a smile that's permanently plastered on my face; I'm not about to lose that, not for anything or anyone. I know sometimes you really can't choose how you feel about certain things, but I'm going too. I'm gonna smile and be happy because there's reason to be; even if its just one reason, I'm holding on to it. I'm not gonna continue to dwell on the past, or anything unfortunate that comes my way, I may not like it when it comes, I may despise it even, but only for a second; I promise, only for a second. There's no use fighting with people, no use hating on others, or getting jealous about insignificant things. If you get into a fight, do you feel better afterwards? No. If your hating on someone and the mere mention of their name or slightest glance at their face makes your stomach churn and you spend time backbiting about them or trying to convince people how retarded they 'really are'; Are you really achieving anything? Does that really make you feel better, can you really convince yourself that your energy isn't feeling depleted because of such meaningless hate? Does getting jealous change the fact that whatever your getting jealous about is happening? Does it make it disappear? No. There's simply no use. If we get into an argument why can't we be the bigger person and apologize first, even if we don't think it was our fault, it's the right thing to do and though it might be hard you will feel better afterwards and in the long run. Why hate someone even, why backbite, that's not going to change them, it's not going to hurt them and its not going to give you any satisfaction whatsoever. I'm not saying its easy to overlook things, to be the bigger person or whatever, but it's pretty damn hard the other way, so why not make it a bit easier, and make decisions that will in turn please God; because He can make it easier. If you want to be happy then you can choose to be, it really is that simple. If you let Allah deal with things rather than getting upset about them and just say Alhamdullilah to whatever comes your way, then nothing can stop you. Nothing will stop you.