Day 9 - Dear Haji (person I miss the most & that is going through the worst of times)

I know I've skipped ahead, but I really wanted to write him and I'm actually going to send this letter, as it is, to him Inshallah..Here goes..

Assalamualaikum Haji,

I don't quite know where to start or what to say, except that, I miss you terribly. Every little thing reminds me of you, you may not be with us at school but I feel your presence everywhere; when we read Al-fatiha with it's meaning in assembly, when I hear a child whispering "Allahumma inaka aafuwun tuhibul af fa'fu ana" 3 times beside me in prayer, when I look at every single student and think where would they be if Allah (SWT), Most Merciful as He is hadn't sent such a blessing, that was you down to us; where would these Muslim girls have found the courage to wear the hijab, where would these Muslim brothers & sisters have found life long friends that truly feel like family, friends that want the best for you, not friends that would talk you into or make you go towards haram..

I know it's hard where you are, and I wish every second of the day that I could take your place, if I could, I would in a heart beat and believe me I'm just one of thousands who wish the same; but I hope that in all your hardship and through all the distress that has been inflicted upon you, you know just how much you did, for so many and how appreciated it all was. When I'm in the car with my tasbeh' in hand, saying each zikr you taught me, 100 times each, I think of you and pray that Allah Ta' Alla doubles your rewards over and over for every letter I recite, I pray that for every letter a child learnt of the Qur'an because of you, for every paper you gave us with Duas and ways that could only make our lives easier, I have each and every one you've ever given me by the way, I have quite the collection, and you don't know how much that means and how much it's helped me and countless others, through even the toughest of times.

It's hard, knowing your there, but I know in my heart, I'm certain, that Allah put you there for a reason, if not to compensate for your bad deeds in this life, so that you could enter Jannah straight away on the day of judgment then it was for some other greater purpose, all I know is that it's for a reason, that Allah Himself knows. You are amazing Haji, the most kind-hearted, most selfless, caring, wise, righteous, compassionate, considerate, tolerant, understanding, sympathetic, generous, pious, unselfish person I have met in my life so far and probably will ever meet. You truly are My Role Model.

I also want to say Ramadan Mubarak and that your in my prayers every day as you are in many others as well. May Allah make it easy for you Always, and make the time pass quickly Inshallah. We can't wait till your back with us again Inshallah, the school and home just isn't the same without you, you where Always the glue that held us all together, you were the foundation. I miss your wednesday talks and when you'd talk to us after Magrib prayer. I miss your big strong hugs and how after hugging you we'd always smell just a little like you. I miss how you would never be seen without your prayer cap and your unique laugh. I miss how you would always talk to me in arabic, and I'd try to respond as best I could even if I didn't completely understand. I miss how enthusiastic you were and how incredible the amount of Imaan you have is. I miss so much, about you Haji, and again I'm definately just one of many. I really hope that your okay and that I can see you soon, Inshallah.

I love you Haji, so much. Your never forgotten in my prayers.
May Allah protect you and guide you always.

Love,
Hannah.xo