I am going to let this go, pretend to wrap up all of my pain, thoughts and feelings, tie it to a balloon and let it fly away~ Bismillah.. for the hundredth time I am going to let this go. I've finally learnt though that just because I let something go, doesn't mean I have to let it slide. There is a difference. I can forgive someone but that doesn't mean I can't express what bothered me in the first place before doing so, otherwise that particular person may not realize what they had done wrong and repeat it. Nevertheless it is always the right thing to forgive. If we can be so arrogant as to not show mercy on others then how can we expect Allah swt to have mercy on us on the day of judgment. Allah swt forgives us for everything; sins the size of pebbles to ones the size of mountains. So I can forgive this, I can forgive this. Ya Rab give me the strength and patience to always try and do the right thing*.

day and night, Syria. you're in my prayers.

i can’t keep watching videos of Syrians with their bodies blown up and completely mutilated. i physically can’t. and it sucks so much because.. just because i refuse to watch it, doesn't mean it isn't still happening, doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. no matter how tightly i shut my eyes or refuse to click on those links…people are still getting their bodies blown up, and they’re dying and they’re children. i can’t for the life of me get how the world can stand idly by while these crimes against humanity are being carried out against our Syrian brothers and sisters, over and over and over again. the problem is the world isn’t seeing what’s happening in Syria; sure they hear about it, but they’re not encountering these situations firsthand (not that we really are), but they aren’t watching these videos either. in order to almost fully understand what’s going on in Syria, the world NEEDS to watch these videos! only then will they almost understand the true pain, suffering, oppression, injustice, violence, cruelty that is going on in Syria. only then will their emotions finally scream “We need to help them!” assad, just jump off a cliff already, die and go to hell! i feel pangs in my chest just thinking about them.., and i can't stop thinking, i can’t get the images of those children out of my head, no matter how hard i try. i can’t deal with having these nightmares anymore, i can’t deal with knowing the Syrian people are living that nightmare. i feel like their pain and suffering has become apart of my life now, like it's personal. i believe that's how it should be though, we as Muslims are supposed to be like one body, and when a part of the body hurts the whole body suffers along with it, the body cannot be at peace until that particular part of the body is ok again. i find myself getting so emotionally involved, so offended and angry when someone talks about the situation in Syria as 'not being that bad' or 'nothing to do with Assad or his government'.. you know what politics aside, what makes me so angry is that we're all arguing about who and what when instead..can't we just remember the dead? respect the martyrs of Syria. remember that tonight, a mother is missing her son. a wife, is sleeping in an empty bed. a father, is without a daughter. we're focusing and arguing about what countries are involved (like the US and Russia..) and what defines us and what threatens us, but we are not focusing on the blood flowing out of Homs. *Ya Rab protect Syria and protect us all. Ya Rab allow the bloodshed to end, comfort the people of Syria, permit them to attain their freedom and let tomorrow be a brighter day for them. Ameen.*