Eating follows hunger, drinking follows thirst, sleep comes after restlessness, and health takes the place of sickness. The lost will find their way, the one in difficulty will find relief, and the day will follow the night."

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So just when I thought that nothing could possibly be worse than what was already happening something insane and massive, and completely outside the realm of probability comes out of nowhere, hitting me harder than a speeding truck. This is definitely not getting any better. As soon as I am on a high, something comes swooping making me fall down from grace, over and over again. I tell myself to get back up and smile, and as soon as I do something trips me over. I'm damaged, cut and bruised and yet I am still hopeful that this is going to get better. Inshallah it's going to get better, Allah swt will get us through this, I believe that.

I am sick to the back teeth of everything right now, and am quite honestly starting to really lose my faith in mankind. I am trying not to resent anyone, but with everything that's been disclosed, boy is it hard. I almost wish I could go back to the time where I walked along the edge of everything, not knowing about certain things and people; just being oblivious to the world that I live in and the people in it. On the other hand I know it was the best thing for us to be shown the truth, however rancid and incorrigible. I am still confident and content with the notion that everything happens for a reason. I know very well that all events that shall come to pass have already been written, Allah swt has pre-ordained everything and I believe as the Qur'an says: 'Verily with hardship, there is relief (Qur'an 94:6). To this day this has been my favourite hadith and I always try to keep it in mind when anything bad happens. The Prophet (pbuh) said: "Be mindful of Allah, you will find Him in front of you. Get to know Allah in prosperity (days of ease) and He will know you in adversity (days of distress). Know that what missed you could not have hit you; and what hit you could not have missed you. Know that victory comes with patience, relief follows distress, and ease follows hardship."